As the silence weighed heavily
The feeling of weightlessness grew
A feather flying in the sky
Floating yet not falling down

No words no thoughts
Nothing arose in the mind
It was all like a blank sheet
With no inscriptions no ink

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Awareness at its ultimate
Vibrations passed through
An experience so true
I was merged with the divine…


Silence – the only path


Words words words…we get trapped in those alphabet formations. The sentences, the implications and the understanding derived from it all accumulate into a huge mountain of information that we surely do not need.

All our life we keep gathering these words and their meanings. We feel we have good information stored with us and feel that we have achieved a lot. Yet the more we store the more we get confused and as the delusion increases, the capacity to discriminate wavers.

We just want to talk talk talk or hear hear hear…either we will be talking or we want others to talk to us. We feel there is no other means of communication. Oh no, nowadays we have these word chats and so many ways to communicate, yet we need alphabets and words!


So trapped in this maze of words and words, understanding the truth becomes almost an impossible task. Even when we are listening to a spiritual discourse we catch the words uttered by the master. A true master is one, who pauses in between, allowing the disciple to absorb the knowledge.

The master does not want the disciples to just take in the information and then later give out the same as a lecture to someone else. The whole point of listening is to ruminate over it and derive the truth from it.


Just like the cow keeps chewing the cud and brings it back from the gut and chews it all over again, similarly the knowledge received must be chewed again and again, until the essence is retained within and by default gets applied in various ways in our life.

But until the time we are busy catching the words, analyzing the same , we are bound to get stuck. Masters usually speak much more in silence. If only we understood this, we would not pester them to speak all the time.

We like it when our Master tells something. We do not feel comfortable when he is silent. We wonder what he is thinking or whether the knowledge is being analysed within his mind before he shares it and so on…

Instead in his silence he relays a lot of wisdom, the truth is always received in silence. The experience happens only in silence, not when one is talking or listening as then it becomes a play of words.

Silence is where the mind stills and a deep connection with the divine happens.

A master sitting silently means he is connected absolutely in those moments with the divine. If we sit near him, in silence, we too will be a part of the beautiful communication happening in silence.

There are no words…only vibrations and energy and a deep stillness and it is in this stillness, in this silence that the truth is revealed…

If only we could become silent and be with the Master who is experiencing the divine through silence, then it is possible for us to experience divinity in that silence…

Silence is the only path…the rest all lead to silence. Silence is the ultimate…in silence…in dhyaana…it will be revealed…


Once the experience of truth is attained, silence is all that remains. After this words are just a medium of communication, a poor means of communication actually, but essential for transactional purposes.

Beyond that, unnecessary talking is better avoided. All the treasures, the wisdom, truth, divinity flows in the silence all the time. But because of the sound/noise outside and inside, we miss it…


We hear the Master telling us to become silent. From the time we were in school, the teacher would tell us to keep silence in order to hear the lesson.

But when it happens to be beyond textbooks, beyond scriptures, we must go beyond words…

Silence reveals all…the merging happens in silence…from everything to nothing happens in silence…

Woman’s liberation


We always feel that liberation is impossible and that when the body leaves us, all that the body possessed is lost and we may feel a sense of liberation.
But that is not true, because when the body is no longer ours and it just drops, by default we are left with nothing but some memories. It is not out of choice, but out of fate.

Most women in our country experience a sense of liberation when they are alive. They give up their entire life for their family and all through the years, though they may get a few clothes and jewelry, they usually do not own anything else.

They live their lives in sewa and until their last breath are only giving whatever they can. They have nothing to call their own. A mother who spends her entire youth and middle years raising her child is finally left with nothing. Generally with failing health and no one to take care of her, she just lives her remaining life liberated. Everything she feels was hers is no longer with her.

Usually left with no money and no health and most assuredly no major bank balance or property in her name, she is a liberated soul. Kids would have flown the nest and she would probably be left with a husband who just wishes her to continue doing the chores of the house till her last breath.

Her entire life she spent in serving and taking care of others. What she got in return was probably a few words of appreciation accompanied by some anger, bitterness etc. This she would obviously disregard and continue with her services.

If she wishes to fly away at any point of time from her service, she would not be allowed to do so, due to social restrictions and also financial constraints. Busy serving her family, she never bothered to accumulate any wealth for herself for her future.

She is left with nothing to call her own. All she would have, once her children have left her is a dependent husband to serve. It would be a bit late at that age to go out and earn a living. If she wishes to do something on her own, her husband may not support her and so finally she is forced to stay with him and serve him until her death.

If she had invested those 20 or 30 years for herself, she would have been independent and take her own decisions and live as per her wish. But would she feel liberated?


A woman who has given her life for her family and in return has nothing of her own except her own body would have felt liberated several times in her life. Though she does not have the freedom of choice she is free.

Free of the constraints that accumulated money brings. Free of her children who decide that they need their privacy, free of everyone and everything. She owns nothing, absolutely nothing at all. She does not have to write a will or sign any cheques…

She looks to be bound, by her spouse who needs her now. But she cannot belong to him. A man who only used her all his life and still wishes to, a man who never allowed her to blossom or find her path, a man who stifled her so that he could feel superior…

She is free of that man…had he loved her, cared for her, given his entire earnings to her, given a home for her and treated her like a queen, she would be bound…she would then have been attached to all the wealth that he gave her, attached to the love and care and bound by the home that was given to her…

She has nothing and no one to lose. She was alone and would be alone…in loneliness one finds a lot of answers. When no one is hers, nothing belongs to her then what was there to be liberated of?


A body is all that belongs to her…and the clear knowledge that it can just drop anytime becomes clear. There is no sorrow as there is nothing to lose.
Why would she need to read the Gita and other scriptures and try to understand liberation?

All she needed to do was, quit her job ( in case she was employed ), care for the family for the whole life and gather nothing in her name. Then except the body there was nothing left to leave…

She was free because she had nothing that she could say she owned. Absolutely nothing!


The mind… a graveyard…

What is this mind and why does it have so much control over us? It is nothing but a huge collection of impressions and tendencies…

When something affects us in some way, it forms an impression and stays stored in the mind. So the mind is basically a collection of the dead past. All that is happened and over is stored in it and accumulates there. Mind is that special device which has no storage limit, it has unlimited storage.

So what’s the point in collecting all the garbage or rather dead impressions or memories? Dead means that which no longer exists, its gone! So basically the mind is a graveyard. Only the old and the dead live and make home there.

De-clutter the mind, is a common term used. How do we do that? Just like we clean up our homes and wardrobes before a festival or celebration in our home, same way we can try to remove some of the clutter from our mind. Yet its almost impossible as the storage is deep and at times unreachable.

Also, whether we wish to clean the dead impressions or feel safer keeping and gathering more is the question! We are scared to go near a graveyard or a crematorium and take bath if we visit one. What is the fear about? Are the dead going to rise? Are they going to suddenly appear in flesh and blood or in any form for that matter? They won’t and they cannot. We all know this, yet we are afraid.

Just by pouring water on the body, can we rid ourselves of the negativity we feel we brought from the area where dead are buried or burnt?

Yet with so much deadly matter in our mind, we roam around confidently. If we were asked to stay silent and not speak or interact with anyone, what would happen? The first thing would be the dead would rise from our mind. All would come to life and scare us to death!

So we are scared of being alone and seek company. We are actually not afraid of being in a graveyard. We just feel so. In reality we are afraid of our mind and its contents. So we avoid looking inside and make our self believe that we have a very clean and good mind.

This is impossible because, even if the impressions stored are good memories, they are still of the past. We all know that past is dead and so all that is stored is old and dead. Good or bad does not matter. Whether you store good or bad apples, eventually all will rot. So the rotten matter in the mind is fermenting and creates waves which influence our thoughts and actions.

It really does not matter what was stored. Everything is now rotten and smelly. The mind has no clue as it’s a storage unit. It just keeps making more space and is quite generous.

The mind has to go…as de-cluttering, cleaning and maintenance will never happen. Impressions are getting stored because we have a storage unit. If we do not have a storage unit, where will we store? How will we manage without a storage device?

Do we need the mind or not? How important is the mind? Is there a mind at all??

How important is a graveyard or a crematorium? We need it to burn or bury. Eventually nothing remains…everything is destroyed on a day to day basis. Nothing is stored long term…

Mind is non-existential. We need to understand this. It does not exist. We feel it does. The device, the storage, the space and the impressions are all fictitious. Nothing is real…

The reason it exists is because we feel it does. When the sun shines, the moon no longer is visible. It may be there in the sky and yet it just becomes invisible.

The light of knowledge, light of atman should shine bright like the sun. The light of love, peace and joy when it spreads will diffuse the mind and leave nothing behind…

When there is love, peace and joy emanating from us, what impressions will be formed and what will be stored? Nothing! We no longer need a storage device. There are no impressions…

Love peace and joy are like the sun…spreading the warmth, giving life to all and yet leaving nothing behind…destroying all the negatives with its strong rays….

Slave of the mind

Why do we say we are not in the mood and when someone asks us to do something where there is no payback??

I will make the point clear. Now suppose your boss tells you to do some extra work can you just say that you are not in the mood. Whether mood or no mood don’t we finish our daily ablutions? Don’t we take our meals?

We do most of our chores whether we have the mood or not. Yet when it comes to something where we need to take an extra step we analyse our mood and mind. Our entire life we spend in doing a lot of work/duties irrespective of our moods.
Is it not time to observe our self? Is not time to check when we say ‘ I am not in a good mood’, do we still do the work awaited or requested? When do we do it and when do we not?

If the boss gets angry our job is at stake, finances are at stake. So at such times, moods do not matter. They lose their importance.

But if your child or wife asks you to take them out for shopping, your mood will suddenly become important.
What will happen if a mother says she is not in the mood to breast feed her new born baby?
When we have a choice we use our mood and decide whether to do something or not. When the worldly issues weigh heavily over us, we forget about our mood.
To meditate we need mood! To go for our daily walk, exercise, gym etc we need mood. There are hundreds of examples…

Just think how we are living our lives. Let us rise above the animal mentality and rise to become humans.

We do have an intellect and the required intelligence to understand that life is not just doing our duties and dying. There is surely something more to life…Are we even living it? Or are we just progressing towards the day when the body will be lit up on the pyre or buried?

Is this why we got this body? Are we any better than a machine or a car? There is a lot to think about and a lot of changes are necessary.

To break the conditioning and to break the bonds…to be free from the cage of the mind and fly in the open sky…

The clear blue sky…white clouds floating, the warmth of the sun, the cool breeze…is it not beckoning us?

Why then are we glued to our mind and its variations, the moods and the impressions? Where is the mind? Who is the ruler? The mind or me?

For lives and lives, ages… we have been a slave to our mind. We still are…Are we really enjoying the prison sentence so much? Is the jail comfortable and convenient and secure?

So much so that we just hold on tightly and are afraid to fly in the open sky…to disregard the moods of the mind and just take off and flap our wings to float higher…in the vast expanse of the sky…are we afraid of being lost there, of being lonely?

Work on being free minded, as this will help us help others freely. We need to be like the floating cloud that showers on all. Love and care, peace and joy is our very nature. No mood or no mind can change our basic nature.

Though the dark clouds do try to cover the sun and its light, they fail miserably. The sun shines through…bright as ever…

Mood King…the ruler!

Very easily we say we are not in the mood to do something…we use mood as an excuse. What is this mood and who invented this word?

As a child I never remember being bored or ever saying that I am not in the mood to do certain activities. Where does this mood come from and what influences the mood? Why so much importance is given to mood and how does it get to rule our life?

Mind is full of impressions and the body has its own ups and downs depending on how we are using it. The body could be overworked, diseased etc. It is like a vehicle that needs repairs on and off. The mind has no medicine and repair work is not possible.

So the mind, using the body usually as an excuse will make us feel high or low and that is what we call as mood. Good mood is when we are feeling positive and high and bad mood is when we are feeling low and dull or negative.

Is the mind alone responsible for this mood syndrome? Is the prana or the life force energy in any way connected? What we eat, how we live and many other things influence our prana and low prana means feeling dull and lethargic. Basically its like a mobile that has less charge. Yet, does it influence the mood of a person?

Mood I feel is an over rated word and is used very loosely. It is the emotional quotient of a person and so can vary throughout the day. It would probably look like the ECG graph if monitored, or like the waves in the sea.

Mood may be connected to the moon too as the moon is connected to the mind. So MOOD MIND MOON all three are in sync. All three words surprisingly start from M, are 4 lettered and mood and moon have only one single letter difference.

Just like the Moon is taking light from the sun, the Mind is taking light from the Atman. So basically their existence is just like a reflection and though they play a very important role, they are not the permanent source of anything.
Unlike the sun that is always there all through, the moon has its variations in size and shape. That is how probably it influences the mind and thereby the mood. The moon also influences the sea and so the high and low tides. This again is like our moods, high and low!

So when we feel our mood is missing or we are not in good mood, we can blame the moon! The mind which does not have a mind of its own!!

Why allow all these factors to influence life? Life is to live as I mentioned in my previous post…So why cannot we just live totally…

A highly spirited person who lives life totally is alive…the rest are dead or on the verge of death…

What it takes to be alive? Simple changes in our thought process can bring the mind in our control…

The very understanding that life is for living and living is not just taking life for granted or doing all duties and chores like a machine…a full charged battery output is what we need to maintain…

HOW? Shun the mind…do not listen to it! The variations will happen, watch them! Moon or no moon, will affect the tide in the ocean and probably try to influence our mind. Our mind is just influenced, why do we get influenced by our mind? Let the mind and moon play all the games, we can still keep the mood in our control. Nothing and nobody should be able to affect our mood…

For that we can also stop using the word mood so often. We are giving way too much importance to the mood and the mind. We are much higher and much beyond the mind. Lets explore who we are as surely we are not the mind.

There is much to do in life, much to experience and living totally should be natural…

So drop the moods, the mind and the moon…lets be the sun, bright, shiny and spread the light of love all around us…

Dead or Alive??

Life is for living and most of us do not live our lives. We are like zombies going about our work and routine and life is just dragging by. Life has become very cheap and the idea that there is lot of time left to do a lot of things is fixed in our mind.

Surprisingly we do not know if we will live the next moment and yet we procrastinate everything…even joy…

Are we not strange? Postponing sorrow and boredom can be understood and also worthwhile. But postponing joy or the chance to make someone joyous is absolutely ridiculous.

We are too self obsessed and self involved. That could be the reason why we fail to see that just a word, a smile, a song or a joke could uplift another individual. A hug, a pat on the shoulder or just a touch could change someone’s mood.

Small actions on our part could make big difference in many people’s lives. Yet we never think of it. We are too busy with our own self to care enough for another…

We miss a lot as we are stuck up in our concepts and moods. Our moods rule us…our mind controls us…we are mere puppets in the hands of mind. Our intellect is asleep and our consciousness levels are low. How else could we miss to see this beautiful world?

The moon, stars, the ocean, the sky…the greenery, the blue sky, the white clouds, the colorful flowers, the fragrance…the sound of birds…the list is endless!

We keep thinking that we can do all this tomorrow…when our mood comes back…from wherever it had gone!!!

We are dependent on our moods and fail to live our life. The ignorance is clear here…yet I see no hope in most people. They are just a dejected lot…sad about most things in life and totally immersed in moods and its variations.

Moods are nothing but unwanted fluttering of the mind that eventually make themselves into something very important.

Anyway life is not meant for people who have no idea of life…

One who is awake, alive, aware every moment is living life…the rest are dead anyway!